… right now is the loss of my favorite series. When the news got out that the 15th season would be the last one, I felt a pang in my chest. I skipped the first stages of grief. After all, what's the point of denial or bargaining? And how could I be angry when I am honestly grateful for 15 years of wonderful stories? Unfortunately, I could not escape the depression. As it wasn't my first episode, I quickly accepted the impending death of my heroes and looked for coping mechanisms.

Moving on and finding a replacement might work for some people, but I needed to fill the already spreading emptiness with more of what I lost. I had read articles and books on Supernatural and enjoyed them ( Supernatural and Philosophy, In the Hunt, Family don't end in blood and more). So I went deeper and turned to academia. Found some interesting stuff, even dissertations. Unfortunately, not much on loss and trauma, which is weird. Supernatural is full of it.

Yes, I know how the Winchesters deal – they kill all the monsters. Never an option for me, or I'd be in prison, and in this case, there are no monsters. In therapy I learned to deal by taking a step back and regarding myself and my problems from a sober, scientific perspective. It works, at least for me. I didn't just want to be analyzed, but take an active part in it and find out what was going on in my head. So I read up on psychology and brain chemistry. What I was looking for in my research on Supernatural was an in-depth analysis of their trauma/ta, (complex)PTSD, dissociation and the like. No luck. The best I found was in Supernatural Psychology: Roads less traveled. A great starting point, but not satisfactory. Doesn't anyone want to write a PhD on 'Supernatural trauma' ?!

If you find it as unbelievable as I do that this title or book doesn't already exist, here' s proof:

This is the 3rdtime I'm starting a blog. Let's hope 3 time's the charm.
I have never kept a diary. My first blog was a diary of sorts, detailing my 'grand tour' through Canada. The second one might have been called 'a writer's humble beginnings', including announcements for readings, newspaper articles, short stories and teasers. Not sure what this one deserves for a title. Maybe 'If I don't write to empty my head, I go crazy' (Lord Byron).


The aim is to empty my head at least once a week. Seems like good psychological hygiene. Also, forming (positive) habits and sticking to a routine creates stability. Mental exercise is just as important as physical exercise and I tend to be lazy. I stopped writing letters a long time ago and my emails are mostly business and to the point, but the craziness needs an outlet.